Believe

Thank you. Both God and “You”. Maybe it’s God sending the message to me through you, or maybe it’s just you. I don’t know, but I’m thankful for both of you!

Today, one of my sister’s friend came over. I was telling them that I am determined to start working out and lose 3-5 pounds, at least. Reason? Once I start the shots for IVF, I will gain around 3 pounds because of the body fluid. Even though the fluid will go away by itself once I’m done with the stimulations. I just don’t want to look swollen when the time comes. He was laughing and say, “oh well, if you are talking about being swollen, I am the pro.” And it just hit me. 

He has a serious health condition that is currently not curable. The doctors can only prescribe him with some steroid to prevent it from getting worse. While he’s on the medication, he often experience some side effects, such as getting swollen, sleeping problem…etc. 

Me? I am just going through an IVF cycle which only last two months. The first 20 days are easy, since I’m on birth control pills.  How could I be so scared and complaining about the whole thing(the possible cure to our problem) while there are people suffering from diseases or fighting for their lives, not knowing when they can get out of it. 

All of sudden, I am clear and strong. I realized that I was just pitying myself. We’re actually really lucky that now the medical tech. is so advanced that there’s such a great solution for people like us. I still don’t know if we can get a baby eventually. But I believe that I have the strength to go through all this and stay positive. I Believe!

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