Polyp

I just knew that things won’t go just smoothly with me. We did some ultrasound to check the uterus lining and some embryo transfer practice, and guess what they found in my uterus. A polyp! So, before we start our IVF, I need to undergo a surgery to remove the polyp. After that, the uterus needs to rest for 30 days before the stimulation shots.

When the doctor was looking at my uterus lining and she pointed out some oval shape “stuff” and said “Do you see that?” . She paused for probably less than a second before she told me what that is. And you know when it’s on a TV show or a movie, this sentence’s always followed with something like…” that’s the baby”.  So, within that second, so pathetically, my mind got crazy and kinda hoped that she would say it’s a baby. Not that I’m completely out of my mind. But I just happen to have friends who’d still have normal period the first two months of their pregnancy, or friends who’d get pregnant when they are on birth control pills. 

However, to be honest, when I found out there’s a polyp in my uterus. I wasn’t sad or angry as I thought I’d be. I was actually feeling a little bit relieved.  I’ve had everything checked up more than once during the past three years. All the doctors couldn’t find anything wrong with me, and yet I’m still not being able to get pregnant. I felt helpless. There’s nothing I can work on to fix the problem. Now, I feel like I’m fixing the problem. Weird?

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